Because I felt always death not life

I sat beside my window, and asked Myself:
''Where is this thing called LIFE? Where is it? Why do I always seem to miss it? Show me, Shaheer please show me! I want to feel alive!'' because I felt always death not life... This world was DEATH for me...

Just then, the bird came. The first little looking curiously down at me. I smiled [ unwanted], I felt that Bird smiled at me and tree gave him company –then something happened; --- a eyes with smile, every leaf filled with smile. There was a whisper within, '' Deep silence and I felt aliveness, Wow!

Then I smiled again, now that smile was pure 
and came from Soul. AHA!!