aelolive

The total presence is the end of a journey,  the end of a quest because the searcher  no longer exists. My first impression is to have completely disappeared from the world.

 I now experience my identity,  which is the nature of everything,  as a clear light like water,  like rainbow,  like reflection  but absence.  I feel myself, my exi stence, as the immensity of presence,  absolutely emptiness  and infinitely deep.  Yet this immensity and density feels totally light and weightless,  completely devoid of any sensation.  It is so empty it is total absence.  It is nothing, but at the same time it is dense presence.  I see everything but nothing- amazing- unique realization How can absence,  which is not existence,  have qualities like radiance and density?  This is absolutely paradoxical,  but this is my experience.