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What should I name this What should I name this!  When I saw today….  What should I say, Who was seeing and what was being seen?  My being or the creation!  Oh, Myself.  Then I realized, I am the creation but ignorant…  In the vast deepness of my being for myself.  Then…  the eyelid opened to view the Nature…  There is neither denial nor the acceptance…  What ever is suppose to happen is happening…  Wow! Then, the life forcasts this is life…  I travel through a moment in century so that century can become a moment…  I deny so I can experience the accept. Humm! The time played game with naughty smile which became deep question, “Who am I and What is time” If time exists then my being exist…   If there is no time, then there is no being.  Then the creation answered,  I am timeless, but I exist in time  I am shapeless, bu...

I was walking, but I wasn't walking,  as if someone walking for my body  and I'm another person.  When I came out of this state,  I realized I was totally alone.  Other walkers melted within me.  They were not they-  they were Me,  Just Me.  Totally Solitary

 I now experience my identity,  which is the nature of everything,  as a clear light like water,  like rainbow,  like reflection  but absence.  I feel myself, my exi stence, as the immensity of presence,  absolutely emptiness  and infinitely deep.  Yet this immensity and density feels totally light and weightless,  completely devoid of any sensation.  It is so empty it is total absence.  It is nothing, but at the same time it is dense presence.  I see everything but nothing- amazing- unique realization How can absence,  which is not existence,  have qualities like radiance and density?  This is absolutely paradoxical,  but this is my experience.

The reflection of the Emptiness is still in my Being.  The experience of beauty without the beautiful.  One experiences a transcendent eternal beauty.  Not a sense of peace  or  release from the tensions of life.  Within and without.  Not a sense of joy or happiness,  not even a freedom.  Not just a oneness.  ONE that is ALL.  There is no I or You - yet,  I wish to die, for there is nothing beyond  - beyond what?  - beyond that which is my experience,  beyond that which I am.  Time has stopped  - and space  - spaces have merged into Being.