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What Name Shall I Give? { BioGraphy}

Call it 'I' or the Universe;

Call it a Walk or a Stop;

Call it Experience or Awareness;

Whatever I say, Still it is Nothing,

This Journey of Life

What Name Shall I Give?


Worldly Dimension:

I did not like the character of Relationship, Which character am I hungry for and Why do I need a person of that Character? I got the answer to this question after 37 years - When I started feeling the same Character in Myself. This is What I have learned from worldly life that WE are What WE care for, no one else.

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  Mental dimensions: 

Ours or Others, True and False, Good and Bad, Pass and Fall, Giving or Taking, Virtue and Demerit and Religion and World; With all this there is some Thought or Feeling – It was my nature to look deeply and understand that. When I saw that this discrimination is only a medium - through Whom one gets the experience of sorrow and happiness, Then I became empty.

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 Intellectual Dimension: 

Who Am I? Who am Why do I need to be? I did not know When my questions became the way. When I reached the destination, I saw that I was beyond Sorrow, Pain, Suffocation, Stress and Worry. What happened ?

 This question of mine took me to the point of Who I am - Who I was and Who I will always be.

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 Religious Dimension:

I was born in a Sikh household; Krishna and Shiva's dreams started coming and a musical pattern resonated in my existence from Quran. The Nature of Silence began to rise deep in me. So the religious question arose in me – Which religion do I belong to? Traveling through Religious texts taught me that True religion is that Which is born from within a person.

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 Philosophy Dimension:

Deep Thinking that Descends from the Cosmic. Sometimes through imagination, Sometimes through ideas and Sometimes through experiences, understands the behavior of Life. Just as there is a heart between Mind and Soul, in the same way there is a Philosophy between Science and Religion. Philosophy is also the heart-chakra for me - Life gives evidence of the mystery of life - from here the journey of Religion and Science begins. Philosophy showed me the way to the unknown-dimension Just as love romanticized me, So Philosophy romanticized me to the universe. I learned from Philosophy What the Soul is - not from Religion. I am very much in Love with the Philosopher's Brooch Spinoza.

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Technology Dimension:

 The TV remote made me curious that If a remote can have this power, then How much will it be in a person. This curiosity was so powerful that I am walking on the path till today and till now the destination has not come.

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Spiritual Dimension: 

Not only Humans- Animals and Birds too; Not only Trees and Flowers - Shoes and Suits too; Not just Thought or Experience - Imagination and Idea too; Not only Religious books, Histories and Proverbs - the existence of Every Word became Spiritual for me, Which arose in me the Question, What is life Beyond the Soul?

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Cosmic Dimension: 

         My Being - Like Not Being;

 Like I am but I am not;

 My being and non-being are the Same;

 So This experience took me on the Journey of Death.

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 Death Dimension:

-What is Death? 

- This will be understood When we know what life is?

 As long as We look through the Window of any Thought, Feeling or Desire of Life, We will never be able to understand or see life. When We have seen life with an Empty EYE and understood it with an Empty BRAIN, Then at that very moment We will understand that the existence of Death and Life is not the same - as We understand it. The Death Dimension is the Conscious Dimension.

The easiest way to Go into the Conscious Dimension is Surrender. To reach Surrender, We have bridges – Which We have to cross. To Meditate - To Love or To Seek.

Surrender in itself is Knowledge, Meditation, Love, Life and Death. This Death Dimension has to become the Energy Dimension. As We become Conscious, So will We become ENERGY.

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 Energy Dimension:

Not only beyond life but also Beyond Death; Not only positive energy but also beyond negative energy, a dimension that is empty, that is space, that is immeasurable - endless - for Which there is no Word - no Thought, no Feeling, no Experience. It is neither a Mystery nor a Miracle. is What? Endless Space, 5 Feet & 4 Inch In My Existence - How?

Now the Question has arisen that I am in Space or Space is in me or We both are in Each Other?

 If both of US are in Each Other then the Question arises that What is that wall Which separates us from Each Other?

 Thought or Feeling?

Experience or Misunderstanding

Thought also Exists, Feeling, Experience and Misunderstanding also Exists. So every Existence is Endless?

Which Energetic particle becomes soil, Which becomes Thought, and Which becomes Life and Death?

At this stage I have learned that Whatever is my positive side- will travel negative and Whatever is negative part of me will travel positive. Then the Journey after that, Which tells What is the right form of Energy - I am going on that NOW---



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इस को 'मैं' कहूँ या ब्रह्माण्ड; 

इस को चलना कहूँ या रुकना;

इस को अनुभव कहूँ या जागरूकता;

कुछ भी कहूँ, फिर भी यह कुछ नहीं, 

यह जीवन-यात्रा  

क्या नाम दूं !


 संसारी आयाम:
 रिश्तें का किरदार पसंद आया ही नहीं, मैं किस किरदार की भूखी हूँ और क्यों मुझ को वो ही किरदार का इंसान चाहिए? यह सवाल का जवाब मुझे 3७ साल बाद मिला- जब मैंने खुद में वोही किरदार अनुभव करना शुरू किया।  मैंने संसारी जीवन से यही सीखा है कि हम जिस चीज़ की भाल करतें हैं, वोही हम होतें हैं, कोई और नहीं।
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मानसिक आयाम:

अपना और पराया, सच और झूठ, अच्छा और बूरा, पास और फ़ैल, पुण्य और पाप, गुण और अवगुण और धर्म और संसार; इन सब के साथ कोई सोच है या भावना- उस को गहराई तक देखना और समझना मेरा स्वभाव रहा।  जब देखा कि यह भेद-भाव सिर्फ एक माध्यम है- जिन से दुःख और सुख का अनुभव मिलता है तो मैं खाली हो गई।
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बौद्धिक आयाम:

मैं कौन हूँ? कौन हूँ? मेरे होने की क्यों ज़रुरत है? मेरे सवाल कब राह बन गए पता ही न चला।  मंज़िल पर जब पहुंची तो देखा कि मैं  दुःख दर्द, घुटन, तनाव और फ़िक्र से पार हूँ।  हुआ क्या ?

 मेरा यह सवाल ही मेरे को उस बिंदु पर ले गया, जो मैं हूँ - जो मैं थी और जो मैं सदा रहूंगी। 

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धार्मिक आयाम:

मैं सिख घर में पैदा हुई; कृष्णा और शिव जी के सपने आने लगे और मेरे अस्तित्व में एक संगीत की तर्ज़ गूंजने लगी।  चुप का स्वभाव, मेरे गहरे में उठने लगा।  तो  मेरे में धार्मिक सवाल पैदा हुआ- मैं किस धर्म की हूँ?

धार्मिक ग्रंथों की यात्रा ने मेरे को सिखाया कि सही धर्म वोही होता है, जो व्यक्ति के भीतर से जन्म लेता है।

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 फिलॉसफी आयाम: 

गहरी सोच जो कॉस्मिक में से उतरती है।  कभी कल्पना  के ज़रिये कभी आईडिया के ज़रिए और कभी अनुभवों के ज़रिये जीवन का व्यवहार समझती है। जैसे मन और आत्मा के बीच दिल होता है ठीक वैसे ही साइंस और धर्म के बीच फिलॉसफी।  फिलॉसफी भी मेरे लिए हार्ट-चक्र है - जी जीवन के रह्सयमई होने का सबूत देती है- यहाँ से शुरू होती है धर्म और साइंस की यात्रा शुरू। फोलोस्फी ने मेरे को अज्ञात-आयाम की राह दिखाई  जैसे प्यार ने मेरे को  रोमांटिक बनाया वैसे ही फिलॉसफी ने मेरे को ब्रह्मण्ड के लिए रोमंटिक बनाया।  मैंने फिलॉसफी से जाना कि आत्मा क्या है- धर्म से नहीं।  मेरे को फिलॉस्फर 'ब्रोच स्पिनोज़ा ' से बहुत लगाव है। 
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टेक्नोलॉजी आयाम:

टीवी रिमोट ने मेरे में जिज्ञासा जगा दी कि एक रिमोट में यह शक्ति हो सकती है तो व्यक्ति में कितनी होगी। यह जिज्ञासा इतनी शक्तिशाली थी कि मैं आज तक राह पर चल रही हूँ और अभी तक मंज़िल नहीं आई।  
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 आत्मिक आयाम: 

इंसान ही नहीं- जानवर और पक्षी भी; पेड़ और फूल ही नहीं -  जूता और सूट भी; सोच या अनुभव ही नहीं - कल्पना और आईडिया भी; धार्मिक किताबें, हिस्टरी और  कहावतें ही नहीं - हर शब्द का अस्तित्व मेरे लिए आत्मिक बन गया  जो मेरे में सवाल पैदा हुआ कि आत्मा के पार क्या जीवन है ?
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कॉस्मिक आयाम:

मेरा होना- न होने जैसा ; जैसे हूँ-पर नहीं भी हूँ; मेरा होना और न-होना एक जैसा ; तो यह अनुभव मेरे को मौत की यात्रा पर ले गया।
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 मौत आयाम: 


मौत क्या है?- यह  समझ आएगा जब हम यह जान लेंगे कि जीवन क्या है?

 जब तक हम जीवन की किसी सोच, भावना या कामना के झरोखे से देखेंगे तो जीवन को कभी न ही समझ पाएंगे और न ही देख पाएंगे। जीवन को जब हम ने खाली आँख से देख लिया और खाली बुद्धि से समझ लिया तो हम उसी वक़्त यह समझ जाएंगे कि मौत और जीवन का अस्तित्व वैसा है ही नहीं - जैसा हम समझतें हैं। मौत आयाम है चेतन आयाम। 

चेतन आयाम में जाने का सब से सरल मार्ग है समर्पण।  समर्पण तक पहुंचने के लिए हमारे पास पुल हैं- जिन को हम ने पार करना है।  ध्यान करना- प्यार करना या खोज करनी।

समर्पण खुद में ही ज्ञान है,  ध्यान है, प्रेम है, जीवन है और मौत है।इस मौत आयाम ने ही ऊर्जा आयाम बन जाना है।  जैसे जैसे हम होशमंद होते जाएंगे तैसे तैसे ही हम ऊर्जा बनते जाएंगे।  

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 ऊर्जा आयाम :


जीवन के पार ही नहीं मौत के पार भी; सकारात्मक ऊर्जा  ही नहीं नकारात्मिक ऊर्जा के पार भी , एक ऐसा आयाम  जो खाली है, जो स्पेस है, अथाह है- अंतहीन है - जिस के लिए कोई शब्द नहीं है- कोई सोच नहीं, कोई भाव नहीं, कोई अनुभव नहीं. यह न ही रहस्य है और न ही चमत्कार। है क्या? अंतहीन स्पेस , ५ फ़ीट और ४ इंच के  मेरे अस्तित्व  में  - कैसे? 

अब सवाल पैदा हुआ है कि मैं स्पेस में हूँ या स्पेस मेरे में हैं या हम दोनों एक दूसरे में हैं?

 अगर हम दोनों ही एक दूसरे में हैं तो सवाल पैदा होता है कि वो कौन सी दीवार है जो हम को एक दूसरे से अलग करती है?

 सोच या भाव ?

अनुभव या गलतफ़हमी 

सोच का भी अस्तित्व है, भाव का भी  अनुभव का भी और गलतफहमी का भी।  हर अस्तित्व अंतहीन है तो ?

कौन सा ऊर्जा-तत्त  मिटटी बनता है, कौन सा सोच बन जाता है, और कौन सा जीवन और मौत बन जाता है?

इस मुकाम पर मैंने यह सीखा है कि जो भी मेरा पॉजिटिव हिस्सा है- वो नेगेटिव यात्रा करेगा और जो मेरा नेगेटिव हिस्सा है, वो पॉजिटिव यात्रा करेगा।  फिर उस के बाद की वो यात्रा, जो बताये कि ऊर्जा का सही रूप क्या है- उस पर अभी मैं चल रही हूँ--- 

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Blessings

Life is God experiencing Self

Thank you to Nature for the feelings she gave me,  the trees, mountains,  her many lakes and oceans,  for the sun sets of color,  the clouds that dance in the sky,  for everything she gives wanting nothing  but love in return!!! Thanks You to The world:  For all the good and bad people  I have encountered along the road,  for the lessons you taught me, even if they where bad,  it was still a good lesson to be learned  and for this I thank you... Blessings!!!

I experience myself as the conscious

'There is no "I" but I.' 'Then is there no "you" but you?' 'I, always I,' 'Gives me to think, I will meditate upon it.' 'Do nothing of the kind!'  'To "meditate" means using split-mind:  just look from within and see  - see  that so it Is!  Stop splitting and stay Whole!' Whatever we may be, we are being 'lived'.  We are not traveling, as we think:  we are being 'travelled'.

What a Spring in my life!

When I am absent there is no Time,  and it is always the present   Today: I will walk through the day with spring in my step,  a smile in my body  and  I will have nothing to say about my healthy life,  wow!  I will enjoy the aroma of nature,  and  the flowering from the inside of me  to the outside of me! Will we go through our day today smiling?

Everything is related to everything else ( We are one )

I will enjoy the travels of my free spirit  and the amazing journeys within my Feelings.  I will wake up fresh,  clear and ready to journey  through the seconds of my life  in my well rested physical body!!!  It always amazes me  how I am all one Mentally,  physically,  emotionally  and spiritually  when I awaken!  Wow!  What a beautiful Journey  and  its Beauty

It is amazing how Infinite we are

When I wake up early and go for a walk early  enough to see the sunrise,  if I keep still and watch for a few minutes  I can actually enter in the moment of this movement.  In all my experience,  I become just Energetic aware that I am here,  standing at this special moment on the surface of this special spot;  and  this spot is going, going for away toward the stars  but very close to me,  then  galaxy, more stars,  more wonderful  - unique and amazing colors  then more universe, more and more billions miles away,  like before Jesus- before birth of this planet,  but close, more close, In me -  in myself.  And  this very moment experiencing the whole universe along with me,  in me  while I feel I am infinite  and  I am beyond the universe

Spend life with who makes you happy ( The real artist )

aelolive.com I will prepare and one day I have a chance...  because of my 'Strong -Courage'  and  'Aroma of my Trust'...  Because my life knows that Courage  and  Trust is the commitment to begin  without any guarantee of success BLESSINGS!!! Every morning we are born again: Every time Shaheer wake up a new her arrives with the new moment This moment: 'She is different than she was yesterday' The time is new because of her feeling, The day is new because of her thinking, The moment is new because of her experience and She is new because of this whole life. Every moment she change, her world changes and she is reborn into what she choose to be in this moment. She is creating her moments today with new clarity, new thought and new meaning.

God is the Source of the intelligent universe

aelolive.com Here, Where all of us exist, Here- right Here, where the two dimensions meet. Natural and spiritual. These dimensions are one. This is pure- real and the holy way... Lets go together for this wonderful and shrine pilgrimage...# 1 * Understanding comes when we, you and I, meet on the same level at the same time. aelolive.com Here, Where all of us exist, Here- right Here, where the two dimensions meet. Natural and spiritual. These dimensions are one. This is pure- real and the holy way... Lets go together for this wonderful and shrine pilgrimage...# 2 When love starts with me, and is given to me freely by me, it sure is easy to remember that it is me that is making memories for me. Life is for living, learning and making memories to create a good day, moment by wonderful moment! aelolive.com * Our thirst is Our guru My preceptor is my thirst, my life, my holy and ascetic practices, and my circumstances. However, the

Ceremony (Who are you)

The Gift: Life is a ceremony where we are here as friends and families to celebrate this occasion. Today’s accelerated moments which we gain from our advance technology has enabled us to travel through the universe, and strengthens our thirst of life.    I am fortunate enough to see and meet you all. The uniqueness of this celebration is that we ourselves are hosts and guests, So today we are meeting, with wishes of peace and happiness.  In this ceremony of life, my heart wished to present a gift. The gift should be of something which can bring hope of a happy life.    With     the grace of God, a pure thought was born which I am gifting today.   A new, unique and virgin view of point, with which we will encounter life.  Wise have said, “If our first step is placed with understanding then our destination becomes easier, and also our path, pleasant.” Paint your own portrait, then you will realize.How difficult it is, to give yourself any face This line

Enjoy the beauty of a silence. (purity )

O, My Naughty Shaheer! First, I see you. You are always in My sight. And then I guide you lightly. Sometimes strongly. I hold a sword of love, and with this sword, I vanquish all ills that never belonged in your heart in the first place. I vanquish ill will. I vanquish all that which is opposed to love. Beloveds, in My Presence, what can you do but love? What barrier to love can exist when you are surrounded by My love, and you sink into My love. You float on a raft o f My love. Where else would you want to be? Where else is there for you to be? There is nowhere else but right here right now with Me. Do not bow. Jump instead. God is with you. This is an occasion for joy. Be joy then and forevermore, for I am always with you, and you are always with Me. Oneness is Our lot! Oneness is Our fortune. Oneness is Our Reality. It is the only Reality that is. You and I are One Experience!!! Always Your from Heart, The Sprightliness